Because I Love You
by Tori Rigby
Genre: YA Contemporary
Release Date: May 17th 2016
Summary from Goodreads:
Eight weeks after sixteen-year-old Andie Hamilton gives her virginity to her best friend, “the stick” says she’s pregnant.
Her friends treat her like she’s carrying the plague, her classmates torture and ridicule her, and the boy she thought loved her doesn’t even care. Afraid to experience the next seven months alone, she turns to her ex-boyfriend, Neil Donaghue, a dark-haired, blue-eyed player. With him, she finds comfort and the support she desperately needs to make the hardest decision of her life: whether or not to keep the baby.
Then a tragic accident leads Andie to discover Neil’s keeping a secret that could dramatically alter their lives, and she’s forced to make a choice. But after hearing her son’s heartbeat for the first time, she doesn’t know how she’ll ever be able to let go.
I kept going back and forth with this book, thinking it was going to be either unbelievable or have some magical happy ending. Well color me surprised when things most certainly did not just fall into place.
I really appreciated Rigby’s sense of letting the reader know that some things are just too absurd even in fiction. There’s a scene that I’m thinking of in particular, where certain characters are planning something not strictly legal, and it just seems so far fetched. However, by the end of it, was I nearly applauding the author out loud for how things are handled.
On several occassions I had to use my tshirt or wrist in a rather unhygenic manner, but I didn’t want to put the book down to go get tissues. It’s not very long, but I still tore through it faster than I expected (take that book reading timer elf!) Then in the next sentence I was giggle snorting. I love love loved Jill and Neil. And grew to love Andie as it went along. Her choices kept getting harder (and this is after finding out she’s pregnant which is one of the hardest things a young person can go through) but she doesn’t really ever give up. It was quite an engaging read, withholding judgment on the choices others make and choosing instead to tell one version of a story that many will find familiar.
It has to be incredibly difficult to write about the many controversial and dark subjects which present themselves in this novel, but Tori Rigby did so with grace and a large amount of sensitivity.
I’m not sure if I’d ever reda the book again, because I’m not sure I could handle that much emotion, but without a doubt I recommend that it be read by others who want to experience something more profound that their run-of-the-mill reads.